relaxation

Another year passed by like seconds. In less than a month time, chinese new year is coming. Everywhere is playing the typical songs and music. Same goes to the decors. But somehow i just don't feel that new year is coming. It feels like another typical day and ya.. It's 1.00am, shall go sleep now.Goodnights.

2010-12-30T01:14:00.001+08:00

Why am i so sensitive all the time?why?why?why?... i'm sorry..

2010-12-29T19:27:00.002+08:00

People love to reminisce the past, guess i should join in the fun. Isn't it?

I won't be blogging much as I will be busy reminiscing my past and doing my projects. The thought of closing down this blog is strong but I'm afraid that those sudden urge of blogging would be blocked off if I do. Let's see what's in the future then.

All the best in projects, my girls!

If this is the last post of the year 2010, shall post my new year resolution first.

1. I want a new life.

2. I want more time for npcc.

3. I want more time for frisbee.

4. I want more time with my npcc girls.

5. I want more time with my TB27 girls.

6. I want more time with frisbee people.

7. I want to learn reggae.

8. I want a job.

9. I want lots of money.

10. I want an answer.

2010-12-27T06:57:00.002+08:00

I know why it was lala.

I know why he love rainbow.

I know why he have so much to talk to her.

I know why his hotmail is spelled this way.

I know why she was a babe.

I know how much similar were they.

I know how much love was there.

I know how effort was there.

I know how much tears he dropped.

I know why this's here.

2010-12-27T06:19:00.005+08:00

I know i haven't been posting much. I came here to post now. I took a look at my old blog and realized how kiddish i was. It's quite hilarious indeed. To be true, i'm still kiddish after all. Read through all the posts and realized how much i used to love someone. That kind of feeling is weird. It makes you feel so horrible and ugly for no reason.

Bye.

Sight gives you the best scenery but it gives you the worst feeling.

2010-12-15T01:51:00.003+08:00

Today, or i should say yesterday, marks the end of common test. However so, the heavy feeling is still within me. I dont know what's wrong but i'm feeling very pissed off, irritated and uneasy this semester. My mind is very messed up all the time. I feel very insecure recently.

I cant seem to sleep well every night. It feels like i'm sleeping but having the knowledge that i am sleeping. I can only fall into deep sleep during the day. What's wrong with me. ]= I finding myself weird, so weird that at times, i dont even know what is wrong with me. Doing actions, saying things and throwing tempers at nothing. It feels like i'm having a big hole on my brain or inside my brain. Someone fix it for me please. It hurts to hurt people you love but you just cant seem to control it.

P.S. I'm sorry.I'm lost.I'm numb to things for a moment.

2010-11-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

I miss those times..Those times with my secondary school peeps.I'm guilty for not spending times with you all]= Now, i miss you guys so much.Looking at photos of how you guys still spend time with each other or with new friends, i feel so lost.I miss you all, very much.I want to go back to those times we spend time during school, after school and every as and when.Having lunch, dinner and staying over at each other's house.Those times that we are never afraid to be separated as we knew we will be there for each other.

I miss studying with you all.I miss eating with you all.I miss lame-ing with you all.I miss doing stupid things with you all.I miss gossiping with you all.I miss every single thing of you all.If only i could go back in time]= I want it all back and let time stays forever.I miss you all.

2010-10-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

Another 7 more days.I'm waiting, i'm counting, i'm enjoying.Let's get over and done with it and we'll be free when semester starts.No more IS, no more BComm.Today is a fine day for me, rushed long report, print long report, play with wang zai, cross stitch and sleep like nobody's business.

My whole mind is messed up.Nothing much more to say i guess.haha!God nights everyone.

2010-10-16T01:17:00.002+08:00

2010-10-13T13:11:00.000+08:00

dead and gone.

2010-10-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

this week isnt that awesome for me. three words to summarize this week, sick,tired,stress.

2010-10-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Blog blog blog~ finally nearing the end of week3 [= Thank God, i survived~LOL These few days, bf and i are like totally immersed into China.We cross road like Chinese, speak like Chinese and buy things like Chinese.

Things are going fine for both of us so no worries![= Had my third diarrhea yesterday and having slight flu now.The weather is really cooling but changes very quickly.You can feel very cold at a moment and next moment complaining about how warm it is.

Had carbonara as lunch today at 1 plus and it makes me missed Pastamanian so much]]= Got so full until night.Had one piece of mochi as dinner and i'm super hungry now.However, i'm lazy to move my butt to get food.LOL

Off for tv shows~LOL [like i say, we immersed ourselves into China] LOL

2010-10-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

2010-10-06T19:11:00.002+08:00

another boring day for me and boyfriend.woke up early for lesson in the hotel today.after lesson, i got a sudden craving for matou [plain bun].So i drag boyfriend to the street opposite our hotel to get buns and soya bean milk.Awesome breakfast of 2 buns and 1 milk for only singapore 30cents!! So cheap and nice!!haha!

After breakfast, came back to go online but no one to talk to.Waited for 2 to 3 hours but everybody seems to be busy with work,sleep or other stuff ]= So i fell asleep.Woke up at 4pm, still no one to talk to.Bored ttm.Ordered lunch delivery, something like MacDonalds but way cheaper and very nice!1 mac spicy look alike, 1 milk tea and 1 chicken stick for only singapore $1.60!

If only food is so cheap in singapore, i will never complain i'm broke.LOL!Okay back to rotting]= byebye~

P.S. the kind of feeling is always there.maybe i dont matter that much or maybe you dont matter that much to me.i guess staying here to avoid things is impossible.trying to survive alone but it always fails.thank God, i have ana with me.

2010-10-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

Saw this from jasmine blog.How true is it?

Every girl needs a man;

the kind that will treat you right as well as others;
the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others;
the kind that searches for you with his heart,
the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies,
the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already,
the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover,

The kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night;
maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep.
That kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy.
The kind that will defend and fight for you,
the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most,
the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering.
The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them,
“She’s the one.”
The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures.
The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him,
the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind,
the kind that will actually open the door for you,
take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers cause it’s a Wednesday.
The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him,
the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget.
The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down,
the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry,
the kind that will go through thick and thin with, and for you,
the kind that just loves you for who you are.
That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep.

are you the one?

2010-10-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

With you
With you
I wish we had another time
I wish we had another place

Now Romeo & Juliet
Bet they never felt the way we felt
Bonnie & Clyde
Never had to hide like
We do
We do

You and I, both know it can't work
It's all fun and games
'Til someone gets hurt
And I don't,
I won't let that be you

Now you don't wanna let go
And I don't wanna let you know
That there might be something real between us two
Who knew
Now we don't wanna fall but
We're tripping in our hearts
And it's reckless and clumsy
Cause I know you can't love me hey

I wish we had another time
I wish we had another place
But everything we have is stuck in the moment
And there's nothing my heart can do
To fight with time and space cause
I'm still stuck in the moment with you

See like Adam & Eve
Tragedy was a destiny
Like Sonny & Cher
I don't care
I got you baby

See we both
Fightin' every inch of our fibers
Cuz aint no way it's gonna end right but
We are both too foolish to stop

Now you don't wanna let go
And I don't wanna let you know
That there might be something real between us two
Who knew
And we don't wanna fall but
We're tripping in our hearts
And it's reckless and clumsy
And I know you can't love me hey

I wish we had another time
I wish we had another place
But everything we have is stuck in the moment
And there's nothing my heart can do
To fight with time and space cause
I'm still stuck in the moment with you

See like
Just because this cold, cruel world say we can't be
Baby we both have the right to disagree
And I ain't with it
And I don't wanna be so old and gray
Reminiscing 'bout these better days
But convince just telling us to let go
So we'll never know

I wish we had another time
I wish we had another place
Cause everything we did
And everything we have is stuck in the moment
Yeahhhh

I wish we had another time
I wish we had another place
(Oh no no)
But everything we have is stuck in the moment
And there's nothing my heart can do
(Nothing my heart can do)
To fight with time and space
(And space)
I'm still stuck in the moment with you

Yeah

2010-09-30T08:52:00.003+08:00

10 days down. Another 24 days to go.Every day is like a torture.Missing home, missing Singapore's food, missing my bed, missing so many things. Life here isn't that bad now as bf and me are getting used to the life here. We are taking buses like taking our very own SMRT. Shopping and eating here is getting to be like how we shop and eat in Singapore.

Having BCOMM lesson now and it's activity time, means slacking time.LOL!i find myself healthier these days with the fact that i sleep early and wake up at 6.30am almost everyday. But one bad thing, i'm still not eating my main meals often.

Mummy called me ytd to warn me about the weather is changing and asked me to put on more clothes. I cried while talking to her.I told her how much i miss granny and sis and how much i wanna go home.She told me to hang on.Time pass very fast.She told me to take care and faster finish the module.She wants me to learn and be independent so i told her i will try.I really miss home.]=

2010-09-27T19:29:00.004+08:00

27 September 2010

I'm feeling so sucky today. Nothing to do and there's assessment tomorrow.Everything seems so bad today.But i dont want to go back Sg too. I just want to stay here and lead a simple life without studying.

Regrets.Regrets.Regrets.I wish no more but isolation.

2010-09-26T17:29:00.001+08:00

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love, whoa

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me, yeah oh yeah oh

2010-09-26T15:34:00.002+08:00

Finally got the chance to update my blog. I'm here in China for some immersion program for 5weeks. The conditions here are really different from what i expected]= However, i'm adapting to it slowly.I wanna go home so badly everyday]=

I miss everything and everyone in Singapore.]= I'm so scared here whenever i'm alone.The silence here allows you to listen to flies flying around you. The darkness here is so pitch dark that you just wanna shoot yourself to death before anything comes after you.

However, there are good things about here too. The food is oily but nice and cheap. The clothes and shoes are quite nice and relatively cheaper than Singapore but not by a lot. But the road stalls food here are awesome.Their mochi is best.LOL and their bing tang hu lu. I shall upload the photos when i return to singapore as connection is kind of slow here.

Another best item i have tried so far is their kfc shrimp burger.NICE!their seafood here is cheap and fresh.Crabs are selling at like 25 yuan which is 5 singapore dollars.LOL ice cream here like cornetto is only sg 70cents and magnum is sg 1.60!!so cheap!if only i can buy back hahaha!

I miss singapore.I miss ah ma.I miss my sis.I miss mummy.I miss bobo.I miss hamsters.I miss javier and joey.I miss food in Singapore.I miss my bed.I miss my teddy.I miss my bolster.I miss frisbee.I miss npcc.I miss training.I miss my girls.I miss npu.I miss npcc girls.I miss so many so many things]]=I wanna go home soon. loves.

2010-09-16T16:26:00.005+08:00

3 more days]= I'm leaving here.The place where i never leave for more than a week.No ah ma, no mummy, no sis]]= But thank god, i have ana, marcus and dawei with me[= Time to enjoy moments with friends overseas and doing things independently[=

Not sure whether am i still updating my blog during the period but will promise to update whenever i can.Okay below are some photos that i have been updating since like.....ages..LOL.

simply love seeing you smile[=

J.U.N.H.O.A

i love you dummy [=

seeing you smile is all i wished for.

the one i'm gonna walk with[=

sweet babe!

act yi ge.LOL

loves Boyfriend!

loves jia xiang mian!LOL

it's never this dark since you appeared.

loves!

coussy's van.LOL

i know how to drive okay!!LOL

Just for you:

I love you hubby.Thanks for always not letting go.I know it has been hard on you.Always give in to me.Always tolerate my temper and all my thoughts.I will learn to let go.I want to spend my whole life with you hubby,just you.I love you.

2010-09-14T01:51:00.007+08:00

It's late but decided to post before i sleep while waiting for my hair to dry.I'm feeling happier each day i guess?Trying to pretend i dont care or i should rephrase it that i'm trying to give up thinking about the past.Every one has a past, we should learn to accept it and forget about it.This way, we will feel happier and life seems easier and simpler.Maybe i have complicated life too much.Time to make it simple and i might enjoy it.However, is it easy to do so?No one knows until he/she tries to.I'm trying and i will try no matter what cause i know there's something i wanna hold on and not let go anymore.

2010-09-12T02:39:00.003+08:00

Finally found the time to update my blog.A little dirts and webs somewhere.Spent quite awhile cleaning it before i can type properly.LOL.There won't be any photos for this post maybe next post.One reason, laziness.It's 2.40am now and i'm feeling weird like real weird.Maybe i'm just weird.

Exams are over and i'm flying in like 7-8days time.Gonna miss everything here and miss out lots of fun too.Before and during exams, it's just simply mugging and whining.After exams, been doing lots of housework and meeting dummy everyday.

Really love this period,time pass really very fast during the day but not when i'm alone during the night.Every second seems like minutes.I finding it hard to let go now.If i really have to, i dont know what am i going to do.

7-8 more days.My mind is filled with lots of different thoughts.Excited about the trip but at the same, not really wanna go for the trip.I dont know and i'm feeling really down at times that i dont even know for what reasons.

Time to sleep.Sorry to end off so absurdly.Nights.

2010-09-09T22:58:00.001+08:00

contented.

2010-09-05T00:23:00.003+08:00

2010-09-04T23:39:00.001+08:00

bored.hungry.lazy.tired.

what's the point of having a phone now when it's of no use.

2010-09-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

2010-09-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hrm and cma down.Left with fmgt.I'm afraid]= I'm afraid of not doing my best.So many tasks need to be done.I'm so tired after 3hours of sleep yesterday but there's too many things to pack today that i couldn't take a nap]= Or i should say i did when i was on the train.Had a little nap and woke up in shock that i overshot my station =.= I'm so tired but still lots of things left undone.I hope i have enough time to revise for fmgt.I'm hungry]= Only had half a meal today as there's no time for a proper meal.Mummy asked me a very funny question just now,'girl ar, you know you haven have your dinner?' I was like 'erm..i know?' then came my ah ma voice 'all she needs is a cup of cup noodle'.It sounds like some advertisement isnt it?LOL Sorry i'm lazy to paragraph this post and highlight it in colours are my life is being monotone and colourless.Boring,uninteresting,busy,never ending work]= I need a life so i started to plan what should i do for holidays.In the end, i realised that i only have 10days of holidays less 2days for workshops, and another 5days before my mummy flies back.Hence, i'm down with 3days of holidays to pack for my trip.The thing is i haven even get a luggage?Any nice soul?I remembered i asked ana but i dont remember her reply.LOL.Okay, i'm bored.Very..I hate the feeling of missing.The feeling of missing someone.The feeling of something missing.The feeling of lost.I blurred out for a moment guess it's back.]=

You left with aunt and i felt the pain in my heart.I dare not say anything as i know i will cry if i do.I miss you.I miss you calling me every morning.I miss you playing toys and always getting me to play with you.Now,it's all gone.You will soon be taken away.Taken to somewhere where your new life starts.I'm gonna miss you.Real hard.You two are little precious of mine for life.I just hope she backs off her words and i can have you guys back.

One by one leaving me.I'm trying my best to hold back but I miss you guys.I really do.How i wish times could stop or reverse where we were all young and innocent.Where things were as simple as abc.Life shouldnt be so complicated isnt it?mummy told me, life is short, just enjoy it.I smiled[=

Sorry my post for today is very messy as my thoughts are very messy now.I dont know what's going on inside it.I'm feeling weird,awkward,fearful,lost,blank,screwed,sick,hungry,tired,painful,headache,heartache,body ache and eveything that is just not nice.Thank god,I have you and family to hold me on.Like the song,i just love the way it hurts and the way you lie.Happy or sad?Life goes on,stay happy shall be my life goal[= okay.sorry that my whole post is so contradicting and my language is like i dont even know what i'm talking.Time to continue packing.The faster i pack, the faster i can be contented to start eating and watching tv[=

Life.

2010-09-02T17:37:00.002+08:00

2010-08-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

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It's never ending.....]]=

2010-08-31T17:19:00.002+08:00

2010-08-31T15:11:00.001+08:00

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2010-08-31T12:34:00.002+08:00

TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART (GLEE )

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

2010-08-27T03:22:00.001+08:00

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

2010-08-27T03:12:00.003+08:00

2010-08-27T03:08:00.001+08:00

It's such a pity.I hate myself.I'm sorry.I'm of no help.Fml.

2010-08-27T01:00:00.003+08:00

I see through it.The kind of pain that one has to go through everyday.I feel you.I pity you.I care for you.I want you to be happy.Seeing you go through all these, i feel pain too]= You called me, you cried, i felt lost.As a friend, I'm really useless.I cant seem to help anything or do anything.Both sides have their own problems, own reasons. I feel more for you as i'm closer to you and whatever you are going through, i went through before.

What i feel now?If it happens to me, I'll take it seriously.I wont regret and i will let go.Why?Cause i know we will be happier this way.Maybe letting go is really an option, why not let go and let both be happier?Cheer up girl.If you really believe that holding on will make both happier then hold on.I'll support whatever your choice is[= For the other one, same thing applies.If both sides have contradicting decisions, I'll just try to help?I dont know what i can do anymore..really..sorry.

P.S. Let go?Hold on?Impossible.

2010-08-25T21:14:00.003+08:00

Suppose to do project and go back to revision.In the end, i couldn't resist the urge but to read your facebook.I read everything from recent to all the way back to your very first post.Looking at how sweet you two were and how things end up like this.I feel for you. It was really a pity.If time can reverse, I'm sure you would want her back and start all over again and last till your last breath.

The world works in such a weird way.No matter whether you like or not, things just wont go your way. When you lost something, you regret and hate yourself for it. Then you start pushing all the blames on yourself and emo. Life works in such an irresistible yet loathsome way. It makes you love it yet hate it at the same time.

Sometimes I wonder, did i made the right choice?Maybe i did not]= Just let it go on and i'll take all the pains and blames when i leave.Ownership is not on me.She's the one[= I'll never blame you.

2010-08-24T19:04:00.002+08:00

Today, went home with gernette, kc and alton for lunch at 18chef!AWESOME!However, the food there isn't as good as it used to be.Prices have soared up!Like freaking alot ]]= Emo. But nvm..Good food[=

After lunch, planned to go home study but as usual, failed. Went home and played mahong.Alton's girlfriend joined us. Had lots of fun today but now i'm feeling guilty for not studying again.Till now, i only managed to study like 4chapters of fmgt.]= COME ON SZELI!!STUDY!!!

Hence, i shall end here and go study(hopefully). Bye~

Note: Wont be updating often or maybe not even updating at all until 8sept.

2010-08-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

Okay, everything is settle.I hope it's true this time.Tired, really tired of everything.I hope i carry on and hang on no matter how hard it's going to be.JIAYOU SZELI!! I promise i will update properly soon.HAHA!

2010-08-20T18:52:00.002+08:00

2010-08-18T01:23:00.001+08:00

Jasmine[npu] showed me this and i thank her for that. I'm not letting go. Holding on even if it's only 1% chance.

Saw this from shihwee's blog, i teared after watching ana's video on facebook and read this afterwards.

What a way to say goodbye

A boy gave a challenge to his girlfriend to live a day without him. No communications at all and he said that if she passed it, he’ll love her forever. The girl agreed. She didn’t text or call him the whole day, without knowing that her boyfriend had only 24 hours to live because he’s suffering from cancer. She excitedly went to her boyfriend’s house the next day. Tears fell as she saw her boyfriend lying on the coffin with a note on the side saying, "You did it, baby. Now, can you do it everyday? I love you."

2010-08-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

Okay i'm lazy to update my blog about my birthday as lots of things happened and i'm really really very glad to have this group of friends with me[= I just wanna thank all these people for making my 18 so special and for accompanying me through my days[= Without them, life wouldn't be so fun and interesting to go on[= btw photos all on facebook.LOL

The girls:

Thank you girls for everything and anything! You girls are always be there to listen to my sorrows, my whining, my happiness, my crap and everything. With you girls around, i never thought of giving up and you girls always pull me up when I'm at my lowest. Without you girls, I dont know what's my poly life would be like.You girls enlighten me with different analogy for life, love and friends.You all are like my teachers, teaching me things that i never know until i know you all.LOL!Gossiping with you girls are nevertheless the best. Laughing my lungs out with you girls just make my life so happy.When i'm down, you girls will cheer me up and when i have problems, you girls will find me solutions. You girls are simply awesome and people that i will never regret making friends and being together with[[[= and once again, i wanna thank each and every on of you for making my 18 so fantastic [= I LOVE YOU GIRLS!

NPU:

I only join this cca early this semester.We only know each other for left than a year but i feel like a family with all of you. All of you are so friendly and i really love playing frisbee with all of you. Sometimes or i should say most of the times, i'm very blur. I dont know what to do in a game, but you guys are just so patient to teach me and encourage me.It's really awesome to know each and every one of you[[[= And special thanks to qiqi,hazel and persis for coming down and the cake[= oh and ivan.LOL I LOVE NPU!

NPCC:

HEY ANIMAL FARM!HAHA thanks for coming down!!really awesome to see you guys!I love each and every gift you girls gave especially the album.Those memories i will never ever forget, never[= You girls are my pillar of strength, even till now, we might have drift or contact in a lesser quantity, the love is there!isn't it?[[[= I LOVE YOU ALL[= every time also write about you girls, so i think i dont need to write too long right?LOL HAHA!!

JunHoa:

My dear, we know each other not for very long but somehow we just got together.It happened so miraculously. I'm really happy to met you and have you.You're really perfect, so perfect that sometimes i wonder whether am i good enough to be your girlfriend. You accept all my flaws, tolerate my temper, giving in to me all the times, thinking what i'm thinking, trying your best just to make me happy, listening to me no matter how unreasonable i am, planning all those surprises. I love you dummy. I love you dumb dumb. I love you silly. I love you boy. I love you sweetie. I love you lovely. I love you dear. I love you darling. I love you idiot. I love you stupid. I love you hubby. I love you junny. I love you chicky. I love you piggy. I love you sweetheart. I love you baby.I love you junhoa. I love you mr yong. I love you Mr Junny Yong Jun Hoa. 19 I love you to compensate the past 19years. We might not be together for the past 19years or love each other for the past 19years but we will for the next 19years and next next 19years and next next next 19years. It goes on. I love you and thanks for helping me to get out. It has been hard on you but i promise i'm gonna try my best too.

Mahjong Kakis:

LOL! Thanks for always entertaining me when i'm bored.LOL!! and really love playing mj with all of you as you guys are really funny!love playing mj with pt the most as you all know why.HAHA!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! and thanks for teaching me how to make all the different set of tiles!!HAHAH

2010-08-11T00:12:00.003+08:00

Had a fun chat with some npu girls on monday over at my place.We just sat in my kitchen, with snack on the table and we talked non-stop.HAHA! It's awesome, really[= The girls are lovely[= They bought me a slice of cake and i really love it[= Fruity lemongrass cake I think? But it's very nice[=

After the girls left my house, i watched ndp but fell asleep halfway and woke up just at the point where fireworks start.LOL! Fireworks are awesome but not perfect as it's on tv and not the actual visual of it. I'm so gonna watch it during countdown and drag all my friends along.haha!

After fireworks, dinner and bath.Watched looney tunes while waiting for friends to come over for mj. Looney tunes is so funny!Even thou, I haven't watch it for very long, it's still so funny and cute.HAHA. Then the people came and we finally mj after so so so so so long!haha!

Huaizhi even bought me present!Quite shocked but really wanna thank him a lot[= I really love the gift[= Okay, below are photos and time to sleep[= loves[=

okay, camwhore again =.= LOL

Specially for shihwee,jasmine,alicia,ana,jiaxin!!HAHAH!! LOVES

Lazy to rotate the pic but let me introduce to you all, MR JORDAN or AUNTIE JORDAN.

Thanks girls for the cake[[= I Love it a lot!!

Thank you Huaizhi for the gift!!I love them and they are resting on my bed now!haha!loves[=

2010-08-08T21:16:00.003+08:00

Another post.The fourth one today.Why?Cause i'm freaking bored.LOL! What a boring sunday...SUNDAY and i'm home.Okay, in fact i'm always at home during weekends.No difference.HAHA! Okay bye, need to search for food.LOL

2010-08-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

Anyone free tml?!Mahjong or fireworks?Or simply come my house we watch ndp together[=We can have popcorns, chips and anything you want.If you are really as bored as me, come help me clean my room and pack my stuff[= loves loves loves loves loves

2010-08-08T20:24:00.003+08:00

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2010-08-08T18:40:00.003+08:00

Went zoo today with family.It's like going back to my childhood[= Those happy days where I don't have to think about what's going to happen next and fear about the outcome of every decision i made.Had breakfast at Ah Meng's Restaurant, it's a breakfast buffet and it's freaking awesome!

I had like lots of different items. Okay, let me name them out[= Prata, sausage, ham, scramble egg, shrimp dimsum[ it's known as har gau], prune, toast, baguette, curry, waffles, beef bacon[okay i said i'm not going to eat beef but you know..=.= sorry cows)= ], hashbrown, orange juice, ice water, cheese and many more.LOL!

Awesome breakfast makes an awesome day[= Walk around the zoo and we took lame photos as well as nice photos.haha.It's good to visit places like zoo once in awhile. Memories flash back and I love those memories[= One bad point about visiting these places is the cost =.= The cost of the tickets 100+, food 100+, miscellaneous 50+. There goes 300+ even though not my money. I feel the pain for my sister and brother-in-law.LOL

After zoo, went northpoint to have lunch. Awesome lunch makes you feel like sleeping.LOL. After lunch, went to get some grocery and home we go. Okay, after nua-ing for so long, I think it's time for me to sleep.LOL. Kaizhin already idiot-ing.It's time for my turn.haha.Off I go.LOL

2010-08-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

School-ed for 2hours and that marks the end of my whole semester!In fact, there are exams waiting for me]= Let's just deny the fact for awhile. After lecture, went lunch at SP with girls and it's awesome[= Just simply love times with the girls, they are always so funny and bring joy to me.

After lunch, went jurong point to have bakerzin for teabreak [[= Awesomely sinful.HAHA! Went BF's place later on and only one word can describe, homey. Rocky is very cute too!! The girls were all so musically talented! They played piano and guitar. I feel so useless.I need someone to teach me!LOL

Went off at 5 to meet dummy. Watch coraline for like a while and i felt so tired. Thus, watched tv instead. Dummy went off at 11]= Missing him so much]= Training tml and I can't go ]]= Missing training too. I wanna learn my back hand throw. It's awful, i need to train and improve.

Worst, there's summer league this sunday, cross over, and i can't play ]= I thought summer league and pol-ite are over, that's why i went to see a sinseh. In the end ]]= should have waited till next week.

Off to sleep..MJ tml[= ROCK ON

2010-08-05T18:02:00.002+08:00

Today is a bad day.Very bad day. Woke up during noon, feeling so useless and helpless.Whole body aching like nobody's business and my heart just simply stop beating. Tears kept rolling down my face and my whole pillow was wet]]=

Woke up, granny called me and went to meet her. Had breakfast or rather lunch with granny and headed to some chinese physician who apparently is my relative after i saw her face.She helped me to message my back. Sprained my back a week ago and dragged until today to consult a sinseh.

The whole process is @#$^%#@!%@$#^% I nearly died =.= She took blood pressure for me and said my blood pressure is very low, that's why I'm feeling restless every now and then. She asked granny to cook me tonics, I'm so going to .... I hate tonics that my granny cook.It's freaking disgusting.

After taking blood pressure, went into this room to message my back. At the start, it was still okay. After a while, i start pulling my granny's shirt and pants.Later on, I start pinching her. It was FREAKING PAINFUL I SWEAR! The only moment i couldn't bear the pain was she found the point where she said my blood clot and she pressed it like with some superwoman power and I screamed out.

The sinseh, or my auntie, said i will recover faster if I let her insert the needle and let out the blood at the blood clot area. I screamed no. Then my granny asked if there's any other method. She says she will try acupuncture then. I freaking cried and screamed no.LOL!! It's so embarrassing ]]]= Then my granny sees me like this, stop her from doing it.HAHA!

After a torturous 20mins, the session ended. Thank GOD! I was tearing like some idiot and my auntie says I'm very weak.LOL.Cry so much.HAHA!!You can't blame me for that. The whole session ends and i went to find my cousins who are outside waiting for us. My cousin was having a stiff neck and wanted to message his neck too. However, he was afraid of the pain and i told him just go in, scream your lung out for freaking 20mins and you will be fine.LOL. Everyone laughed.LOL!!

The worst of all is I have to go back and message again in a few days or a week time ]]= After message, went to have a haircut and my fringe is ....cui ttm]]]= Went home, cook noodles and I overcooked it. The noodles become so soggy and tasteless. Sat on the sofa and my whole butt like bruises all over.Pain and uncomfortable.

Finished my noodles and went to take my water bottle.Dropped it on the floor and my bottle broke]]= Water all around and i got to mop it as granny was cooking dinner at her house. Mopped the floor and i nearly slip.

What a day]=

However, there are things that cheer me up too. All baby's messages.I'm sorry for whatever i did and i promise i wont do it again.Sorry and I love you very much baby..

2010-08-05T00:20:00.002+08:00

Finally everything is over.Down with 3modules, another 3 more to go. YOG is here like finally[[= Okay, going to watch haipaitianxin and P.S. I love you once more.Bye~

2010-08-05T00:17:00.001+08:00

Secret - One Republic

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

2010-07-28T14:36:00.002+08:00

Time passes so quickly.The semester is going to come to an end soon. Rushing through all the projects and YOG is like waving to me.LOL! YOG = break free = rest = enjoy life like finally.Okay i'm like waiting for time to pass now. Meeting eba tutor for a little meeting at 3pm and xiamen's seminar at 4. Boring day as i got not enought sleep. Okay, bye bye.

2010-07-28T01:00:00.003+08:00

That should me, this is so wrong till you believe.

You said you need time but you took the time to replace me.

What you doing to me is breaking my heart.

That should be me.

2010-07-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

Picture of the day, Jordan Ng, nerd of the oldies.

I'm tired, bored and confused. Tired from work, bored from being confused, confused as in dont know what to do. Okay, this post is just being posted for the sake of it. Bye.

2010-07-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

I spent like 1-2hours trying to get a simple and nicer blogskin but halfway through, I gave up.LOL. Watched inception yesterday with npu people.I was late but could somehow get the story[= Awesome movie as the plot was quite interesting.

Today,had a match with freakshow.They are really good, I didnt play the full game.Played for maybe quarter of the game and my waist injury came finding me.No choice, I sat down and emo.Walked like someone who sprained his ankle and people look at you like you're a freak =.=

Reached home, ate noodles and I'm hungry now.Craving for astons, 18chef, pizzahut, kfc, sushi, bakerzin's cheesecake, jollybean's jelly beans, cup noodles, soursop ice cream, prata, nasi lemak, beancurd, waffle ice cream, macDonald's pancake, fruitee's strawberry ice cream, fried hokkien mee, fried kway teow, dim sum, porridge, popiah and many many more!!!

Off to sleep now if not my stomach will start growling haha!nights

2010-07-24T02:26:00.002+08:00

Yang Jek sent me this song by bieber. It's awesomely nice[=

Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreadin' 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time from my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working cause you know

That that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong I can't go on
'Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain is my heart

Ooh Ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me

Holding your hand
That should be me
The one making you laugh (oh baby oh)
That should be me

That should be me
Giving you flowers
That should be me
Talking for hours
That should be me (that should be me)
That should be me

That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I never shoulda let you go
That should be me

2010-07-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

Okay I slept for only 1-2hours ytd as I was mugging for ECD.Suppose to start at 4pm but I slack here and there until 12am then I got myself the mood to study.In the end, mug till 4 or 5am then I decided to go to sleep.Woke up in 1 or 2hours time then went school.

Went school and my whole brain is so blocked.Cant think properly and so stressed as I cant seem to remember what i studied=.= Had EBA tutorial, Mr Chan talked to us about our business idea.It's so awesome that we got into the final[= Hopefully we get the top prize so that we can all go Australia together for FREE [[= Just wanna go overseas with the girls and party like crazy

Okay anyway I'm so stressed up during the 3hours break and decided to eat ice cream[= HAHA! The world is just so beautiful with ice cream[[= Finally the paper starts and ends[= Everything is over!! Went home with dummy and had dinner.Just love you so much dumb.

I miss npcc peeps.I miss teasing peiting with them.I missing eating 18chef with them.I miss mj-ing with them, watching movies with them, watching overnight movies and falling asleep, cuddling around each other watching horror movie.HAHA!! Just love those times with sec sch peeps.YOG coming, let's do it all over again if we have time yea[[=

Nights people[=

Baby, I love you so much[=Sorry for doubting you but I really need time.I know you love me, I love you too but the barrier is there.I need time to dissolve it[= Trust me, I will try my best to dissolve it[= I love you.

2010-07-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

Thanks coussy, your message and call really cheered me up[= Loves you so much!Cant wait for YOG to come and meet up with you.Miss your stupid face and all your craps![[= Finished my cma tutorial and I'm suppose to study for ecd test now.No mood =.=

Came home and after bathing, i fell asleep.Woke up from a nightmare.I dreamt of a couple kissing in front of me.I cried and woke up.What's going in my mind?I dont know but i know that's the most scariest dream i ever had and I dont want it to come true.

My life is full of..... Just b me as i'm an evil b.

Nights.

2010-07-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

2010-07-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.Blog tml.Nights.

2010-07-16T02:16:00.002+08:00

Another day passed by and I havent do my eba e-learning.LOL! Life is so boring with so many work.If only I'm the God, I will set a law or a culture that doing homework and project is against law or human rights.I guess many agree with me.HAHA!

Saturday is coming and I dont feel a thing.Alicia said she felt that she's not doing anything and I told her dont nervous.However, thinking back now, I'm not doing anything too =.= If i fail ECD, seriously, drag me to hell. ECD test coming and I havent even revise.Saw shihweeeee revising and I felt an urge to study but went home, slacking session starts again.

I feel so !@#$%^&*&^%$# cause i'm not doing anything.HAHA! Like my life cycle a bit weird. Anyway, going out with jiaxin tml to get some things for the bazaar and maybe eating Aston.HAHA!Might be watching movie with Hazel too.

Okay, I will start on my eba elearning tml=.= HAHA. Anyway, this saturday, there will be a bazaar at Downtown East from 10.30am - 7plus. Please come down and support me...I need all your support!WAHAHA Hope to see you guys!

NIGHTS!

Happiness is just within seconds.Savour those seconds.

2010-07-13T19:49:00.002+08:00

Finally, get my freaking lazy bum to go renew my passport.Wanted to renew my passport like during the 2weeks holidays.In the end, dragged till today.So, what's the real reason or why I'm so motivated to go renew my passport today?Got a call from the tutor in charge early in the morning today=.= He said, erm when are you renewing your passport?I need the data.I was like...lost for words.So, I said i would go update it soon.Then he was like today or tml?Okay, fine today.

Went school for 2hours lesson and had lunch with girls.Awesome chat with them HAHA!After that, went down lavender to renew my passport.Reached ICA building, I look at the directory to find out which level to go.Stood there very long as I couldn't find.I was like =.= So, went over to ask a security guard.LOL.All he told me was, "you go over there *points*, take the form, fill up, submit,done[="

I followed his instructions, but got another problem cropped up.I don't know which address to write down and i called my sister.She says I'm silly cause it's obvious that I should write my new address ]= Then, i asked her, what's our new address.LOL! After that, we hanged up.

In the end, I don't know how to pay =.= So, there's this friendly-looked lady beside me.I asked her for help.HAHA!After that, we became friends for that 10mins.LOL! We chatted while filling up the form and we even look at each other passport's photo and comment.HAHA!I wanted to use my sec sch photo but she asked me go take a recent one as I look a bit different now.So yea, I went to take new photos.HAHA

The whole renewal of passport costs me $75.35 and I went to bought new ink cartridges today.Another $60 gone.I'm so broke]= Guess what, I msged my sister telling her how pathetic I am and asked her for subsidy.LOL!THANK GOD, she agreed[=LOVE HER TTM.

Okay, that's all for today.Nothing much happened.Off for tv[=

I love you.I really do.I love her.I really do.But how can I balance between you two when I get so affected by her but I'm so freaking in love with you.I need air,space and anything that will make me feel better.

2010-07-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

Okay, Mr Kang Kee Ching is reaching his 300posts and I'm nowhere near.I have decided to reach 200posts by the end of this semester where I only have 119post now.Knowing myself, I would just simply spam craps and nothing logical on my blog just to get the 200posts.Thank God, I just wasted like few lines typing all these crap.

Dummy sprained his leg and didnt meet up with him today.Feel a bit weird as today is the first time we never meet.I guess i will have to get use to it.One day, I will face this too.I miss you and I can't bear to.

I guess i need get my fingers off my laptop and do my work.If not, I will never be able to sleep on time and my dark rings will just haunt me everyday..LASTLY, i wanna nag again,I'm freaking tan and I hate it.=.=

Putting on a mask is tiring and suffocating.However, I know it's time to do so to save me from troubles.I just want to walk away silently where no one notices me and to somewhere where I see light.

2010-07-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

Take each and every steps of life carefully.

You changed me[=

Don't stop life.

Wait till the end.Be patient.

2010-07-10T18:54:00.002+08:00

Putting on a mask everyday.Pull it off, take a breath.Feel the difference.

2010-07-10T17:22:00.002+08:00

It takes something to build up trust but nothing to turn it into trash. Life is all about trust, have you trusted someone you should not or not trusting someone you should? I think i have trusted someone wrongly but i still believe without trust, nothing move on.

2010-07-09T22:47:00.003+08:00

Grow Old with You - Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

2010-07-09T01:08:00.001+08:00

Simply 3 letters to describe what I'm feeling now, FML.

2010-07-07T21:54:00.003+08:00

I'm so freaking tired.Got home today quite early, bathed and i fell asleep after my granny massaged my leg.She says my leg looks very bad but in fact, it's not as it's not painful at all. I'm hungry now =.= I'm eating more than usual recently for no reasons. Getting fatter makes me feel sadder everyday.

In addition, I'm so broke and I kept on eating and eating and eating.Finish a meal, buy fruits, then buy ice cream then buy snacks and then buy whatever I see. I haven been eating cranberry scone for 2 days!!!Shall get one tml if I'm going school early.But most likely I'm going early to get my ice cream from edric's I&E.LOL!

Past few days and weeks, been rushing a lot of work and trying to meet project deadlines.Today, I realize I have left not much things to do except for tutorials and revision for cma.But, I feel super awkward like I'm not doing anything.haha!

He's not replying me, must be sleeping againLOL! I realize how pig the both of us are.All we do is eat and sleep.LOL!so no life!!!Mr Yong Jun Hoa faster wake up if not I'm going to fall asleep soon!Okay, I go do something to entertain myself.

I'm missing you.

2010-07-04T02:08:00.002+08:00

Been losing focus on studies.]= Spending so much time slacking and sleeping.I need a life]= Study, frisbee,sleep, eat, my life]= I wish I am in Hawaii now for some surfing LOL! Okay since so many people know about my secret code in my blog, no point writing secret code.LOL!

Jordan you are so !@$%^& horny HAHA! But your eyes is really big and nice.If I have your eyes, it would be awesome.Anyway, had a friendly match with RPU today. They are very nice, in terms of the girls, polite and always focus on the game.It was really a good experience with them as you get to see the nicer side of people during a match.

Went lunch and home. Reached home, bathed and went for dinner =.= Mummy's back and the food fiesta starts once again.Gaining weights and I've feeling so...However, it's alright since it's once in awhile.After dinner, went shopping for some grocery and went home.

Got home and prepared to go out again to meet dummy.Met him for dinner.LOL!Really love his company[= Tml, no matter what, just try your best[= I know you can do it!SMILEEEEE! Love you[= See you in 7hours time!!Nights

2010-07-02T10:09:00.003+08:00

Just so you know - Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

2010-07-02T01:48:00.002+08:00

Okay, it's 1.51am when I typed the very first word of this post.I'm very tired and I really am. Decided to blog before I sleep as lots of things happened today.I'm bombarded with so many scenarios which I don't know how to react.Luckily, I got LooWanQing with me. Thanks girl, you really helped me see things in a different perspective even though I couldn't really see it but thanks for being there[=

Sometimes, things can't be viewed as it is being observed. I guess we need to look at things in a 360degrees kind of way to realize the real situation and what's going on.Some people love to say stories while some love to exaggerate. There are also people who love to keep quiet and listens to what others say.Me?I'm a person who love to listen to stories.Be it true or something being made up. What will I do after listening? I love to ask questions, lots and lots questions, be it dumb or smart questions.Clarification is something I love to do but something that always hurts me in the end. However, I still love to know the truth.LOL!

There are lots of emotions and feelings going through my mind now. I don't really know what I am feeling now or even thinking now.Maybe I'm in a stage of confusion and God will enlighten me if I go have my silent moments with Him, which I apparently did not have with Him for very long. He respond to me everytime I pray but did I respond to Him?Sorry Lord, forgive me.

Minghui, I know you will see this some days.LOL you dumb blur king!

Jordan, somehow you know this so I'm going to say again, your eyes are really gorgeous!

Dummy, sorry for whatever I had said today.I'm sorry for being too rash but I really don't want any more things to happen to you.Take care of yourself especially your leg.Rest well and I love you.

2010-06-30T09:31:00.003+08:00

I read your post.I'm not sure whether will you read my but I'm just gonna post it anyway.I must admit I really feel very guilty every time you tell me things, i feel damn guilty. I don't know why am i feeling this way but i want you to know that i will keep up to my two promises.The third one i'm still not sure whether am i up to it.

I don't know the reason why you are admitted to hospital, I tried asking you but you divert the question away and i decided not to bother you further. I know you have your own reasons.To me, I find you a very nice and sweet girl that's why i am feeling what i am now.Even though you say you don't mind, I'm the one who mind.I'm serious i mind every word you say as i hold you up in my heart. Please don't be afraid to tell me things. I know i mind but i know i would love to share your things.I really don't know how to express myself now.If ever you feel emo, tell me, call me. But if ever i emo, please leave me alone[= I will tell you at a later date.

Dummy, I love you no matter what[= Our promises, I'll never forget[= We will get married and have our piglets yea[=

2010-06-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

I will remember all those promises and trust! "Trust is the road to happiness", quoted from Ang Say Le twinnie [= This sentence applies not only to relationship but friendships and kinship.

2010-06-29T13:22:00.002+08:00

School is really boring me out.I'm not doing my work on time and I'm feeling guilty.Where's the nerdy szeli?!LOL! I need to do my work faster and I need lots of SLEEEEEEEEEEP and FOOOOOOOOD!Dying here.Off for lecture~

It's back]= Stop making me feel this way.I don't know whether you're on purpose or really trying your best to make me feel the other way.My EQ is freaking low, please stop testing its limit.I love him,I really do.Stop hurting me.I need my own moment to rethink about everything again.Life sucks.

2010-06-28T13:10:00.002+08:00

First day of school.TOTALLY CMI! So tired and drained out.Got back 1 paper and it was 'kaki fuyong' [[= And congrats to all my girls for getting 'kaki fuyong' too.haha!!Having my lunch break now and just had rice.I'm full like ya.

Okay, I'm crapping as I got nothing to do.HAHA!!Lecture starting at 2pm but my brain has already stopped at 12.30pm.Hopefully i wont fall asleep later as i got so much to do.Projects bla bla bla bla bla bla bla!!!!! Hols can you faster come to me.I would love to have you right now!hahah!

Stop my craps, i go find things to do~

I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love dumb.I love you stupid dumb dumb dumb dumbdumb dummy!!!

2010-06-26T02:48:00.002+08:00

Okay i finished fmgt and ecd tutorial.Great achievement yea[= LOL!I still left another 3 tutorials to go and 3 project but i'm only left with 2 days with training in a few hours time and summer league on sunday. How am i going to finish all these?I dont know.Leave it to fate.HAHA

I miss my sunday family day]=.I miss my dog.I miss my sister. I miss my future brother-in-law.I miss my mum.I miss crapping with them.I miss my sister's spanking.I miss taking unglam photos with my sister.I miss the crazy shopping with them.I miss acting innocent and cute in front of them to make them laugh.I miss their laughters. I miss my dog's barking.I miss bobo's innocent face.I miss cuddling bobo.I miss my sister's face.I miss mummy calling me baobei.I miss sister staring at me and burst into laughters when i do stupid face.I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!

I came across this quite old song but very nice:

忘了是怎么开始也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己已深深爱上你真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随那个疯狂的人是我喔～

I LOVE YOU 无法不爱著你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快乐只要能在一起做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停用最真诚的心让爱变的简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随那个疯狂的人是我喔～

I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里陪一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU(yes I do) 永远都不放弃这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No
请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著爱你 (yes I do)

2010-06-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

Went school to do project but in the end, we discussed only as we weren't well prepared.LOL! Stayed back after project meeting to do a little tutorial work but read two slides and i decided to go home.haha! Went home and planned to do work but again i chose to do housework.haha!

After housework, went to meet peiting, gernette, kc and hz. Had eighteen chef with them and really laughed a lot. The feeling or relief and easiness is back again[= I'm being myself and no stress from this world when being with them. Secondary life is what i hoped to go back in time to have once more. Something i never regret having in my life is my secondary school friends and joining npcc.

Okay, time to do work]= haha! Jiayou SZELI WAHAHAHA

Seeing you this way, i can't control but to feel like crying.Seeing her like that, I can't stop myself from blaming or stopping myself from going close to you.Sorry.Blame me for everything and i will feel better this way i guess.

2010-06-22T22:49:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired after training. My whole body is aching and I still have to wake up early tml for project meeting. Simply, business is full of projects that I feel like killing myself.haha! But thank god, all my group members are nice as they are my girls haha!

Looking through the days that I'm left with to do my work, I panicked ]= Why am I so undisciplined?All I am thinking is sleep,eat and play.Everything is getting on my nerves.Hopefully i can get my projects all done by either tml or friday and all my tutorials by friday so that I can focus on the league. If not, byebye to sleep and food]]=

Someone please remind me to do work.haha!I need constant reminders and strong pressure in order to make me move my idiotic body to do work.LOL! Hopefully the semester ends faster and let me rest in peace.Haha sounds so...Okay, time to relax again. I will start tml, I promise[= HAHAH

seeing you hurt,my heart hurts.wanting to show concern but my guilty conscience is stopping me again.screwed my life.

2010-06-21T17:16:00.006+08:00

Training tml and league on thurs.Time is rushing me but i'm just gonna take my own sweet time haha!In my life, i've met lots of lame people but none can win my hot babe Alicia until now, I found new challengers!LOL!That's none other than my simpsons group members!They are simply awesome and lame that i enjoy being with them so much.haha!

Okay, need go do work.lalalalalalala someone save me!!LOL Enjoy the pictures~

awwww.....

cute isnt it haha

love.

my group leader aka ironman[blur & lame version]

preparing for our skit.

I'm so tanned!!So ugly~~ LOL!i need whitening lotion, whitening laser rays if any and milk bath.hahah!

2010-06-20T20:40:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps~

I'm back from camp! My leg is so screwed, so ugly, so tanned that makes me feel like chopping it off ]]= But no choice, sports is always like that with the fact that, I attract all kinds of balls and disc. Maybe my mum shouldn't name me szeli which sounds like i have 4 balls or something that all the balls come find me thinking i'm one of them.LOL. okay lame.

Let's talk more about the camp.

Day 1, I'm suppose to meet celine and junkai at 8am but as usual, I couldn't bear to leave my bed. Hence, went to school alone at 9. It wasn't so bad as I'm used to going school alone.haha! Reached school and saw some of the people that i know and went along with them to the grandstand.

We had lots of ice breaker games and really love it as people in my group are all very funny, lame and blur.So we had lots of fun laughing at each other silly-ness. As a group, we are very bonded as we always bully our group leader and he always get sabotage by us. However, he will always play along with it. After ice breaker, we had mini games against other groups and no doubt, lots of funny actions from others including me. Wanna know more, ask me as i'm lazy to type.

Second day we had lots of games and our group skit . The last day is very simple, we had a mini debrief and there we go HOME SWEET HOME! Overall, the camp is awesome and the best part is the loft[= It's my first time there and i'm so amazed by it!hahah!! Okay that's all for camp, for more information, call Szeli's phone. [=

After break camp, went home to unpack my bag, bathed and went for summer league as supporter. Went there and watched the match between DK white vs. NPU . The match is awesome even though we lost, i think NPU did a great job!After summer league, had a little pick-up session and home I go.

Throughout these 3 days, I learnt a lot thanks to lots of people in terms of frisbee and personal life skills. I guess i still have lots to learn and there are lots of life decision that i can't make as it's all fated. Hence, I have decided to ................... do nothing as i don't know what to do.LOL!

Anyway, I just finished bathing and i went to check what i need to finish and submit when school reopen and my jaws dropped.... SO MANY WORK AND PROJECTS!!!!and there's still lots of training and competition and i'm feeling so so so so so so so so TIRED!.Okay, i shall stop nagging and go do my project before i doze off.Bye peeps!!!

I think i'm falling once again but there's something stopping me and that's my guilty conscience. Is love all about doing the right thing or loving the right person?I don't know. I hope so much that it's me but the other corner of my heart is telling me that i should hope it's not me. But i really really want it so much]= God, tell me what to do please...

2010-06-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

Looking through all those lovely and sweet memories, I'm missing every single one in my secondary school.Those that i love, those that i like, those that i quarreled with, those that i used to bully, those that used to bully me and lots and lots more.

Bring me back to the past and i promise i would never let it happen again. Or bring me to the future, i would want you mine.

2010-06-17T00:37:00.003+08:00

Hand me your anything and i'll give you my everything.

Put me in your arms and i'll put you in my heart.

Let me get close to you and i'll bring you close to me.

Thoughts bring you nowhere but effort bring you somewhere.

Hold me tight and nothing will break us apart.

Cover me and i'll give you my life.

Get over it and restart button is next to you.

2010-06-17T00:33:00.004+08:00

You seem so near but yet too far for me to reach.

Are you who i think you are?

Are you prepared for it?

Am i suppose to take it up or let it go?

Take me to heaven and I promise i'll never let you fall to the ground.

2010-06-14T23:08:00.004+08:00

Common tests are over and here comes the summer league. I hasn't been updating my blog as I'm really tired after all the studying and trainings. Therefore, I would TRY my best to update as often as possible.Maybe once a month or something LOL.

The two weeks of hols is nothing to me.I'm filled with lots of trainings like what other NPU people are and projects too. Hopefully i can survive this semester.Anyway, I'm going Xiamen with my BF(Anastasia)!! Shihwee dont be sad okay.HAHA

Okay, as usual, enjoy the photos.

Icey, my another love

Had mahjong sessions with these peeps.LOL! Huaizhi, army-looked boy, NPCC rocks.

ALTON!buddy from sec1 till now[=

KKC, knew him long ago but we got to know each other better thr mj.LOL

sometimes, beauty just come as simple as this.

NPU Team Green!!! WanTeng.

Qiqi!

Persis!

WanTeng

After training at west coast park with NPU, went for Alvan's cell group bbq. Alvan is very nice to invite us over.ThankYou!. Went back home with JunHoa and WanTeng. Junhao slept and we took a picture of him.LOL

Okay, finished my post!HAHA!Bye People~~

2010-06-02T21:32:00.001+08:00

God, please put some sense into my mind so that i would start revising on my freaking ct.HOLIDAYS I'M WAITING FOR YOU BUT YOU SEEM SO FAR AWAY!

2010-05-30T21:58:00.010+08:00

Okay, it's a been a very very very long since i last posted anything on this dying blog. One week of e-learning week just ended and everything starts all over again from tml onwards. CT in 1week time and I have not revise anything. Hopefully i get back to the study mood soon.

Recently, I have decided to join frisbee with ali and jx. Even though they didn't really go for training, I still decided to stay as the game is fun and enjoying. Okay, feeling lazy to type again. Below are photos that due like don't know how many days,weeks or months.

While waiting for jh to end his project discussion, kc and me decided to camwhore.

This's soonyi's dog. Very lovely and really love his cuddles.

Sports camp D&D

Theme -Geek Vs Safari

me and peiting at sp's toilet. very nice background LOL

my love

this guy named ah niu, an artist which i don't know his full name but he came np to promote his first movie debut

joey[=

my love

the one that never left me[=

oh..this is syahmi.[not sure if i spelled it correctly]

new year's overnight at my's house. this is jj. i tied his pony tail, or i should call it 2 little spikes.

Okay, off to sleep.I'm tired over all kinds of things that is happening.

P.S.: I'm living in fear all over again. With you around, nothing seems to work and nothing seems to make me feel home. God bless me that I can get out of here as soon as possible. Amen.

2010-05-05T18:50:00.002+08:00

In SP now, waiting for friend to finish project so that we could have dinner.haha!HUNGRY!! Okay, I have like tons and tons of things to do but I'm simply lazy.

I've never forgotten about you.You made an impact in my life and I simply want you back.now that you are with her.changing gf so fast.i got nothing to say.f me.

I want a new life new beginning and i wanna forget about you.i'm sad and disappointed but nvm. i want a life.]]]=

2010-04-27T22:19:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm bringing myself here to blog. Been really sick and lazy to blog]= Spent the whole holidays with sports camp peeps and sec sch peeps.Really enjoyed it[= Fever came after me during the last week of holidays and soon, flu came and lastly cough.Fever and flu had been kick off from my body.Left COUGH!!! Been coughing for a week. Cough is getting worse these few days. I couldn't sleep due to it and had really little sleep everyday.I even cough till i vomit juices out. It's very sickening.]]=

Sch has been fun i guess?The best damn thing is I'm in the same class with my girls[= It simply rocks when I'm with them.Feeling protected, having the highest level of fun and bitching the best ever stuff. Love their accompany.

I planned to come home today to sleep awhile and finish up tutorials so that I could go out like during the weekends.Sadly to say, I went to meet pt,jh and kc for dinner and didn't get to sleep.Reached home around 7plus and very lazy to do tutorials. Thus, decided to blog and head to sleep.HAHA.

Off to sleep[[= Nights peeps GBY

2010-04-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Back from my miserable days.The happy-go-lucky szeli is back to irritate everybody!!HAHA. Okay, been either going out with sec sch friends or staying home to rest as I've been really weak.Suppose to go for starhub lifestyle urban something something but woke up feeling very dizzy. Hence, message others to inform them about it.Sorry peeps, couldn't join you guys.

Been ton-ing a lot and my health is really bad now so gonna take this last week of holidays to rejuvenate and get back my GOOD health before school starts. Miss my girls a lot and finally we got into the same class again.AWESOME [=

Hence, I've decided to spend my last week with my sec sch mates and I really thank each and every one of them.Especially pt,kkc,matt,hz,ts,alton. They have been the ones going out with me and playing lots and lots of mahjong with me.HAHA.I'm addicted to mahjong X=

Tml going back to school for styleogy and going out on tues for badminton with the same group of peeps[= Tues shall decide what to do for the rest of the week.Okay, time to sleep[[= Bye~ GBY

2010-04-06T00:09:00.001+08:00

Done.

2010-04-04T00:15:00.000+08:00

One word, Finally.

2010-04-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Bye to you.

Bye to friendship.

Bye to everything.

and

I'm left with nothing.

2010-04-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

Been 2 days, I can be honest to all, I'm still bothering over my hamster's death. On top of that, I've been reflecting on myself and other things. During the recent period, I've been very down and people that are consoling me are not all the ones that I've expected them to be. I realize how pathetic I am. But Thank God, PeiTing is still the one being there to me[= Thanks Pig, you've been a wonderful friend since sec 1. I will never forget all the things we have done together[=

Meanwhile, I have seen the real side of someone. I never regretted being friend with that person but I doubt I will in the future knowing him having this "kind" of character.

Maybe the only true friend I had was God, he never left me suffering alone. I might have betrayed him but He never blamed me for anything. Thanks Lord.

2010-04-01T00:49:00.003+08:00

Shall not talk much.Please do not ask me why, what or how it happened.Thanks. God bless him

loves.

2010-03-26T20:30:00.004+08:00

Okay, people have been complaining about why am I not updating my blog.One word, lazyness.LOL. After 5 days of very tedious yet awesome camp, my throat went haywire.I WANT KBOX but...my throat is seriously CMI. Anyway, suppose to report for work the next day after camp but wasn't feeling really good and my granny is complaining about the company I'm working in.So, I'm in a very difficult situation of whether to continue working a not. [Sorry huaizhi, I will quickly settle my mind and inform you]

Went out in the evening for dinner with GLs at popeyes. It was an awesome night with all the camp fever on and doing all those things that I seriously would not do in the past.GLs are just simply people that changed me and making me more daring to do things that are stupid but fun.

Headed town yesterday to crash Vesta's outing but the funny thing is, Vesta people actually invited us there so it wasn't really crashing at all. Tried out Frolick and personally, I dont really like yogurt but Frolick's orea yogurt isn't that bad[=. GLs stayed till around midnight and went home after that. Cabbed home with leonard and chatted quite a number of stuff.Got to know him better i guess.

Today, GL outing again at barrage but didnt go as granny not very unhappy about me going out everyday till midnight.Hence, stayed home and accompany her[= My maid is leaving tml]]]= NO MAID!! and she's really an awesome maid, I'm not kidding.Simply nice and attentive.

Mummy coming back on 2nd april [[[[[=!!!

leonard told me maybe i haven let go of you.I told him nope, i have already let go of you and waiting for the next one to appear.In fact, i find myself lying to him.Maybe i really haven let go of you and all the memories.Your smile,your hug,your kiss, your everything.I just miss them so much and i just want you back.

2010-03-15T23:53:00.004+08:00

Okay, I'm suppose to blog about what happened during GL Camp Day 2 and 3.BUT, I have no mood to type. Hence, I'm just going to post some very very old pictures and ya...

working during CNY ]]=

cousins~ okay, we both look FAT HAHAH

erm...she's my cousin's daughter.so I think she's my niece or something

typical aunties and uncle

okay, my weird bangs.anyway I've changed my bangs.

LOL!!!Emmelline lost her game while I was trying to take the cute picture of bubble puzzle

ALIVE. hahah

Off to sleep. byebye nights[=

He looks so like you that makes me stare at him another second.His height, features, body structure, dressing and the way he walked.So typical of you but it just not you.How I wish it was you.His appearance makes me realise how much deep inside my heart that I'm missing you.Maybe I just have not let go of you and that's why I still couldnt find the one that I'm looking for.You're just too lucky and fortunate to find the right one so much faster than me.I wish you eternal happiness.GBY

2010-03-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

I'm finally back from all the overnight-ing.LOL. Had my awesome sports camp from wed to fri. Initially, I really dont have any mood for the camp and wanted to book out on thurs night but everything just fall so nicely that I didnt book out.[= I shall elaborate more in the next few paragraph.

Day1,

The very first game we had was at the swimming pool and we got totally wet like nobody's business. Had about 4 station games and all were super fun. However, I got the first bruise of the camp here too.HAHA and my bruise look like some freak cuts.HAHA after water games, we had lunch and more station games.Erm..actually I cant rmb much HAHA.Let's skip to night.hahaha!!! At night, we went dairy farm for a night walk.Okay, as usual I'm a freaking timid person.Haha! The first part, I partner-ed with Des and everything was alright as we walked in like the whole cohort and the only challenge was the uneven route. The second part was .... Partnered with Sandra and the first freaking station I screamed because of pravin if I rmb correct. Rest of the stations were alright. Got to the final destination and we were like the second pair and we waited for ...... God knows how long and my bladder nearly i mean ALMOST burst!!!!Went back school and went to the Toilet straight!Feel so relieved.HAHA Alright, I will tell you guys more abot day 2 and 3 tml as I'm tired once again.HAHA byebye nights[=